Colorschemes and being a busybee

I’ve been busy with work and schoolwork so I haven’t been able to write, and I know it’s kinda excuse as well because I’ve had some time where I could have done these prompts but I chose not to. Instead I chose well-needed rest and reset for my mind.
If I’m totally honest – I feel a bit sad that I haven’t been writing.

I’m so behind with all of these prompts, but when I saw this “What color describes your personality” two came right to my head. Well actually way more that that, mostly shades of blue, orange and yellow with a hint of warm red.

Colors I’m super into right now are shades of red, orange and yellow, mixed just like in the autumn leaves.

But if I would need to choose my favorite one – I could never as it changes with my mood and everything. I just love all of them.

So I needed to pick two of my favorite ones, which I think somehow would radiate myself. I went to a google and just watched these shades and picked the ones that felt right – for today.

Dandelion yellow and Cornflower blue.

I have no idea what the meaning of these two could be, so I ended up searching more info on the internet.

Dandelion flower meaning optimism growth and good luck. Yellow dandelion signifies optimism, growth, happiness, good health, peace and friendship.

All of those aspects are really high valued in my life. I’m generally really optimistic person and I’m always wanting to grow and find a way to be a better person. Wanting more from my life than what is it – still trying to find the thing that speaks to me – in a way “sadly” there are too many things I want to see and experience. At the moment it is working with kids and make their days brighter and teach them about many awesome things but who knows about the future.

Blue cornflower is seen as a symbol of freedom, vastness, courage and hope. Blue is also a color of honesty, loyalty and responsibility. love, fertility, hope, anticipation, patience, elegance, delicacy, refinement and single blessedness.

Freedom has always been something that I’ve craved for, freedom as a feeling when you can make your own choices and be proud of them. I tend to feel really anxious if I would need to stay in one job for the rest of my life or if I don’t have any abilities to change my mind whenever I feel like it. Sometimes it is conflicting with my need of stability and routine as I really get frustrated and bored with it. Needing structure but wanting to change it when it becomes dull.

Conquer yourself

What fear have you conquered?

This question is pretty hard to answer. I have many fears but frankly I’m not sure how many I have conquered. Either way, one thing came straight to my mind when I read the question.

Trip to Gdansk, Poland

I talked with a dear friend of mine. He was telling me his adventures all over the world and I really got inspired. I made a plan to go somewhere relatively close, as this was going to be my first trip alone, to a completely different country. I bought the plane tickets there pretty much out of my impulsive hyper energy phase and after that I checked out some pretty cheap hostel and made reservations. Tickets and the hostel for 3 days were barely over 120€.

It made me so excited – this was my own merit for “knowing I can do anything”. One day before the flight I was so nervous that I would have been late or forgot something. I had one backpack ready with some clothes and passport. I wanted to travel light, go on a budget but still enjoy every moment.

When I got there I wanted to take photos of everything. Things I found beautiful, no matter how common it would be, all the foods and views, buildings and small little things. And to be honest, I fell in love. I fell in love with everything.

The amount of freedom, waking up whenever you want to and just going wherever you want to go, visiting weird places and all the small corner cafes. No obligations, just you having adventures and taking photos of everything. Architecture, birds, old buildings and churches.

I just love waffles and this was a dream come true

It felt empowering. I was the one in control.

And being there just felt right, but late at night I had this small feeling that maybe it would have been nice to share this feeling with someone else.

Overcoming the myth people always told me; you could not travel alone, it’s too dangerous.

Second conquest I had when I visited Bazylika Mariacka. As I mentioned in my earlier post; I’m afraid of heights. In a plane it’s not that bad, but when I walked the stairs to the roof of the church I definitely felt like fainting, legs shaking, hands touching the bricky walls. More than 3 times I was ready to return back, but kept going. I didn’t want to give up. I was already in a new country, I didn’t come this far to just be defeated by my own mind.

Beautiful Stained class

I loved all the small details

But I am happy to announce you that eventually I made it to the roof. And that, my dear friends, felt like I was winning in life. It felt that nothing could stop me anymore. Going back down was a joy, I felt that I am more than I was before. Talked with totally stranger british group while they were going to the roof, they were all lovely ladies staying in Gdynia. I enjoyed our brief chat – feeling even more victorious of my sudden bravery.

It was breathtakingly beautiful view

Almost crawled these stairs

I’m craving to get back. Addicted to the feeling of freedom, seeing new places. I probably got overboad with these pictures, but seeing them makes me extremely happy, traveling back in time and just feeling the same feelings I had while being in there.

I fell in love – I fell in love and am longing for the moments.

Movie-like travel dreams

I’ve been super busy with work these couple of days and today was my first day back at school. At the same time I was super excited but still a little bit bored as the first days are always just general stuff and not so much learning.

Now I’m trying to catch up with these posts. I feel like I’m slacking even though I have legitimate reasons.

What is your preferred mode of travel?

I love to travel in every way. Depending on where I’m going and how much time I have to spare. But if I’d need to choose my most preferred ones I would say traveling by bus, car or train.

There are just those visual movie-like moments I’m romanticizing, you could picture all the roadtrips with summer breeze, lonely and rainy bus windows in a countryside, rythmic sound of train wheels passing over a rail joints.

I have a fear of flying but it’s one of the cheapest and fastest way to a different countries so i don’t complain. Seeing the clouds and all the buildings makes me extremely excited even when I’m afraid we fall to our deaths.

Cruise ships are always full of people, crowds shopping and drinking alcohol and it makes me anxious, but there is still its own perks. I love watching the waves and being on the deck or sitting by the window just ignoring the other world. Mesmerizing nature. Sailing would be pretty awesome thing to experience even once in a lifetime.

Normally I would go to work either by bus or with my electric scooter. I don’t have my own car as owning one is pretty expensive, at least in Finland and with these fuel prizes probably everywhere in the world.

Enormous amount of money

If you had a billion US dollars, how would you spend it?

One Instagram scammer asked me similar question awhile ago. It was about 5k dollars and I send them links for charity websites. Sadly they only wanted my PayPal rather than donating them straightly to those in need. Did not send any of my info ofcourse, it’s too common to lose your email accounts or other things with these kinds of thing. Be careful on the Internet!

Back to the subject; How would you spend that enourmous amount of money.

• Investing and saving
• Help my family and friends
• Travel all around the world and do the things I would love to do.
• Pay away my loans and also the loans my family/friends have so they would have a fresh start
• Give to charities that would really help people, animals or nature in need
• Help the homeless and would love to have shelters and safeplace for them and other people/families in need, with cozy atmosphere, food and options to wash themselves and maybe somekind of a kickstart to get back to the society and get on track with their life. There could be free counceling with different areas in life for them as well if they need/want any. Place where everyone is welcomed and not judged. “What goes around, comes around” as in kindness. I would wish that place to be kind and it to spread kindness to outer world as well.
  • Would love to help small businesses to thrive.

This post made me a bit emotional because it made me remember how many things I would want to change in this world. All the not so great things with hatred and people, animals or our nature suffering. There are greatness and many beautiful things as well but destructive nature of some makes me just so utterly sad.

I’m yet again waffling and changing the topic probably for the millionth time but let’s all try to be more kind and maybe one day, in this dream utopia, there would only be love.